That little device was a part of a way of our life. Plugging
in the tubing into that little button was a muscle memory thing for me. I
matched up the line on the tubing plug to the line on the feeding device,
twisted slightly so it was locked and place and let the bottle drip until he
was fed. Once it was done, I matched the lines, popped the tubing out, and put
the little plastic cap back on the button. It served its purpose until the next
time.
I miss the button in the same way I miss him because it was
part of who he was. He had that little apparatus since he was two weeks old. He
died with it in place. I don’t know for sure, but I think he was cremated with
it in place. I’d give anything to have that back, the old routines, the feeding
rituals, the mechanism and tubing, because it would mean he was back. I miss
him terribly.
I have another mouth to feed, and she is fortunately free of
all the devices and mechanisms that granted him life for so long. I wonder what
I’ll tell her about her brother one day, about that time in our lives. I know I’ll
definitely tell her about the little button in his stomach that ate for him and
gave us the time we so desperately needed with him.
Trifecta’s editors asked for 33-333 words using MOUTH in its third definition:
3: something that resembles a mouth especially in affording entrance or exit: as
a : the place where a stream enters a larger body of water
b : the surface opening of an underground cavity
c : the opening of a container
d : an opening in the side of an organ flue pipe
This is what I came up with. For some reason, when I thought of mouth, I thought of the surrogate mouth my son had while he was alive.Check out the other writers signed up for this challenge!
8 comments:
Very sad.
oh gods I'm crying. This is so moving.
Heartbreaking and beautiful. Thank you so much for trusting us with these words.
I'm not sure if this met the letter of the definition, but it's what I came up with. Thank you for giving me this outlet for my writing. Sandra and Draug, thanks for the feedback.
I am sorry for your loss. I am glad you had time with him, to love him and to let him love you.
Oh,this is very sad-am so sorry that you had to lose your boy but glad you have his memories & a healthy little girl to create new memories with,God Bless her & you too
This was a courageous post, and all I can do is thank you for sharing it with me.
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So sorry for your loss. Lovely tribute to the time you had with him.
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